The trials and tribulations of our journey to make a baby.

I would die for that.

Monday, January 26, 2009

I won I won I won!!!

So I used that Pregnant Snowlady picture to enter a contest. It was to win a free maternity photo shoot. This woman does AMAAAAZING work!!  And guess what??? 

I WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

http://www.avajackphotography.com/?cat=6 Check out her stuff!!  She does such awesome work and I can't wait to see what she can do with my bod!!! I have seen tons of pictures of hers and not all are in the bra and undies.. In fact, I haven't seen any like that. I don't know if I have the guts to do that!!!  But I LOVE the pictures where she has the woman wrapped in that sheer fabric!!  EKKK I am so excited!!

So what week do you guys think I should do it at? I don't want to be tooo huge but, I wanna pop more than I have now. hmmm.. I was thinking maybe 30 weeks? 

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Me and My Pregnant SnowLady


Stephen made me a pregnant snowlady while I was running errands today. So I posed for a shot!

Monday, January 19, 2009

20 week sonogram pictures!

All went wonderfully well. We still aren't finding out the sex, although, I think BOY.

I made friends with the sono tech and she printed us 8 pictures rather than the 1-2 she was allowed. I had to sneak them out in my purse. LOL.
So without further ado.. Here is my baby!!!
Here are two little feet. awww.
Baby's face and chest. The black spot is the heart.

One little foot.

Here's the whole baby!!
Side profile of the face. Look at those nose!! I think he/she may have my Grandpa's nose!
Another side profile.

Baby kicking Mommy..

Here's the skeletor shot!

Thursday, January 15, 2009

WOW



A true miracle took place on the Hudson River today. A little closer and it would have been disaster for all on the plane and those on the ground.




Congrats to the pilot and the brave crew for doing an amazing job landing that plane and getting everyone off safely! (as well as the quick responding ferry boat captins that came to thier quick rescue!!) I am amazed!!!





AND by the way.. after looking at that first picture.. I may pay the extra price for 1st class from now on!!

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

What would you tell your younger self?

Do you ever think of the things you used to stress about as a teen and now realize how silly they are? Do you wish you could go back and tell your younger self to shut it?

For example... I had this friend. She was OBSESSED with another friend of ours.. a boy.. She used to start fights if anyone talked to him or.. gasp.. kissed him. But, he just wasn't into her. However, they were good friends and they reconnected a bunch of years ago. Well now, 11 years after we graduated.. They are getting married this fall. I wish I could go back to her high school self and say, "Relax, you are going to marry the guy!"

For me... I started my period very late. Like about 16 years old.

Which is so weird because my RE told me my FSH levels were a bit borderline and my clock was ticking. When I told him I got my period so late, he was puzzled. He said I may just have a very short fertile period.. But, anyway, I digress. :(

So what goes along with having a late period?? Late breast development. I was in a training bra in 9th grade!!! I can remember this mean boy, Greg. He sat next to me in band. One day he goes, "Why do you wear bra when you have no boobs?". I was so upset. I was a catholic school girl who transferred to public school in 9th grade. I knew no one, was so down on my self and he pointed out my worst flaw. sniff sniff. I ran into him a few years ago and he was being all nice to me. I had a few beers in me and I told him off. He didn't remember it but, he goes, " I realize now what a jerk I was. So many peole have told me off for stupid and hurtful things I have said and I am really sorry." LOL.. So I got my closure.. sorry digressing again!

So I finally get my period, in church.. yuck. And the boobs came slowly. However I can remember sitting on my Mom's lap in the bathroom , many times, crying and sobbing, "What if I never get boobs? I can't be this flat chested my entire life." My Mom would say, "So what if you are? Is it going to make you less of a woman?". (well no, Mom, but, boys like boobs) (another aside, My friend from high school who wears an A cup is doing well in Hollywood now and every guy on earth thinks she is beautiful. So I guess boobs aren't everything! I might tell my teenaged self that. But, she stole my boyfriend in high school and that just might make my teenaged self angry).

I can remember making out with a boy in high school and we were at around... 2nd base. ;) He was feeling up my shoulder something crazy.. then I realized.. he thought my shoulder was my boob. I said, "That's my shoulder..". He started laughing and I was a good sport about my tiny boobs at this point. But, still.. I was embarrassed. I used to wear A LOT of padding back then! Victoria's Secret was my friend! LOL.

So, imagine my amazement, when sophomore year of college, I grew boobs!! Real boobs! I was up to a 34 D and I was a petite girl!! Who knew. And they were quite perky and beautiful, I might add!

I went to the bra store to get professionally measured this past weekend because, my current bras were cutting of my circulation. Guess what? I am a 36DD!!! (Granted they are nasty, resting on my belly, and covered in stretch marks) But still a 36DD!!!

So what would I tell my teenaged self? "Relax, you will grow boobs, big ones! You may be almost 30 when it happens but, it will happen!! And maybe, you would like them so much then!"

What would you tell your teenaged self? ( I think a lot of us "IF'ers" would tell ourselves to stop wasting money on birth control, No?)

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

I am a pregnancy cliche!!

Okay.. so it's not pickles and ice cream but, I am sitting her quite happily eating Kalamata olives and hot chocolate with marshmallows. And it's sooo goooooood!!!!!!

Anyone else have weird cravings... Pregnant or not?

Thursday, January 1, 2009

It is not OKAY to call a pregnant woman fat!!!!

Grrr.... I was a New Years party last night and I told my friends brother and his loudmouth wife that I was preggers. His wife's brother happens to be married to a girl I went to high school with... beautiful.. blond... the whole deal. She apparently is due a month before me. So douchebag guy goes, "Yeah Bethanne is due a month before you but, she is not as big as you are"...



Umm yeah...

Don't call me fat please?

My BFF was there and she was appalled for me. I just didn't really say anything and laughed it off. She couldn't understand why... but, here's why... I hear that almost EVERY SINGLE DAY! Every day some moron tells me how big I am, how I look way bigger than I should, how they can't believe that's only 11 pounds, how I should just prepare myself now because even I don't gain the pounds, I am going to look HUUUUUGEEE! (and yes.. those morons include my dear mother.. who I love more than life itself.. but, "come one Mom!")

I'm 5 foot tall and freaking pregnant people!! Where do you expect the weight to go? I am really trying hard to not have body image issues and embrace the weight gain.. but, it makes it very hard when people call you fat every single day!!! My midwife tells me that I am have gained the perfect amount of weight. So there!!!! Back off people...

P.S. I think it's funny that I didn't get all fired up about this until my bff suggested that I should be! LOL