update...

Last night around 4pm to about 9pm, I had major O pains. I know I o'ed last night. So, I had the IUI this morning around 10am. I hope the little eggie held on that long. The doctor told us to have intercourse tomorrow and I aksed about the back to back IUI. She said she have a problem with it. So, we are going back tomorrow at 7am. I am taking a half day. Kind of stinks because I don't get paid sick days for summer school but, whatever. It will be worth it if it works. I don't have much faith in it working though. Please, Keep us in your thoughts!

Edited to say: I got more braces bunch mail yesterday!! I love it. Thanks Sandra. Now I really need to sit down and write out some cards!!

They wouldn't do my IUI today!!!

I am seeing red, for real. I am so angry. They refused to the IUI today, Saturday. They won't do it until Sunday, with a possible second on one Monday. They said that the surge on Friday would mean that I come in on Sunday because, they time from the first AM surge, which would have been today.

I feel that if I was to do back to back it should have been today and tomorrow. Monday will be too late and pointless. I know the surge doesn't mean I ovulated right then but, since I surged Friday afternoon, I could ovulate Saturday afternoon and the egg will be a little old on Sunday, and Monday it will be way past it's prime.

This was my last natural cycle and I wanted to try everything possible before we moved onto more tests and fertility drugs. I kind of want to have sex today, even though his swimmers don't work that well on their own, just to cover all bases but, he is supposed to abstain. I just don't understand why, since I am paying a lot of money for this, I can't just do the IUI today? Would it kill anyone to just do what I wanted???

Generally I like the practice and I think a lot of my stress has to come from my fear of using more aggressive means. I don't see the point of me using clomid if it is MF and my cycles are fine. I just think they want to give him more targets. But we have a very strong family history of multiples and the doctor said that my risk of multiples using clomid is then higher. We only have a one bedroom house until the housing market swings back up and I just don't know how we could handle twins or trips. If we got them naturally that's great, but, I just don't want to do anything to encourage that, you know. So, since this was my last natural cycle, I think they could have just done the IUI the way I wanted today and the repeated it Sunday, the day they wanted.

I have great IF benefits but, only if I go to a "center of excellence". If not I have to pay 20%. So I really can't switch doctors and I don't know if I want to switch anyway. Besides this stupid rationale on IUI timing based on OPK's, I have been happy. I just wish they would trust my body a little, or just appease me this month.

I knew I should trusted my gut...

So, I wake up this morning and POAS to see a negative OPK. I called the doctor and spoke to the nurse and she concurred that my bloodwork did not show a surge and that I wasn't ready to Ovulate. I pointed out that I had a mature follice and my body symptoms are telling me that the big O is near. She says, "no". Keep using the OPK's and call us when you get a positive. She said I could do to back to back IUI's if I want but, since I didn't get the positive this morning that she expects I will be in for an IUI on Sunday or Monday. Call them if I get do not get a positive by Monday.

I hung up frustrated. I just know that they are wrong. So, I poas this afternoon around 4pm. Guess what???? A positive OPK!!!!!! GRRR, I am so angry. So I called the office and they are closed for the day. I want the IUI tomorrow. I am so sick of this testing in the AM with first morning urine when everyone knows that LH surge happens in the afternoon. I am convinced that I am catching the tail end of the surge each month by testing in the morning. Then, I get the IUI the next day and I think it is not good timing.

So, now I need to call them at 7:30 am and BEG AND PLEAD for them to do and IUI even though I didn't have one scheduled. I swear I am going to freak out if they don't it. AND I want them to do a second IUI on Sunday. I might have to pull out the bitchyness!!! I just don't understand why they didn't listen to me. I have been doing this is MY BODY for 14 months. I knew the surge was happening today!!!!!!!!! I could just cry. What if they can't do the IUI tomorrow morning?

OOOhh My follie is about to burst!!!

So ,I have one follie on the right side that is 17mm. Nice. It is just about ripe!!

I expected to get a positive OPK today just based on the bloat and the watery Cm.. sorry tmi.. but, I didn't and the bloodwork didn't show a surge either. So maybe tomorrow?

The nurse did say I could schedule the IUI tomorrow, based on my symptoms, and ignore the LH surge bussiness. But, I don't trust my body and my symptoms so, I am waiting for the smiley face on the opk's.

My Mom thinks that the LH surge monitoring hasn't worked (as in, I haven't become pregnant, because, I totally get a postive opk and a postive surge in my blood.) for the past two months and that I should have scheduled the IUI for tomorrow. But, I ignored her. If my office would do back to back I would do that. They don't. So hopefully I surge tomorrow and have the IUI on Saturday.

Do you think I made the right choice?

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Not much to report. I am waiting to ovulate. I will start using OPK's tomorrow and I have a sono and bloodwork on Thursday.

I am fat as a house and it is only getting worse. Soon I will be able to pretend I am pregnant. Fun. However, I not motivated to do anything about it, yet. I just don't feel like dieting. It is too stressful and I have enough stress. So, a bunch of people from high school might be going to the beach on Sunday. Any ideas how to hide the blub?

Camping was nice. My sister and I got into a fight and she called me an infertile bitch. Well actually, not a bitch, much worse but, I won't type that word. And I apologized to her. That's right. I apologized for telling her to keep her voice down and stop clicking her car alarm at midnight. Because, that is the worse offense. (read: sarcasm) But, that is life when you have a bipolar sister. You walk on eggshells and let her say awful things to you to keep the peace. But, besides that, we had a nice time. We hiked so much I nearly passed out standing up. We went on AWESOME wooden roller coasters and saw some fab fireworks. Life in the wilderness was good. However, I am glad to be back in my A.C. in a populated area. Small town life is not for me. I did it for 6 years and I just like Long Island too much. If it was only not so damn expensive!!!

Summer school started yesterday. It sucks. It is hot and I hate scheduling my caseload. I was able to get my boss to give me another speech therapist for 3 days because, I just couldn't schedule everyone into a slot unless we held school on weekends. But, I think I am done with the bulk of the paperwork and I will start seeing students tomorrow. I can finish the rest of the paperwork in between. That makes me happy.

So anyway, that's it. Not too exciting, right?

Going Camping!

Well tomorrow starts summer school! Yuck. That's right kiddos, teachers hate it as much as students.

But, right after school ends we are heading south to PA to go camping!!! My dh and I, my two brothers, my parents and my sister and her boyfriend are all going! I have travel anxiety issues so I started packing on Monday and just finished up today. Now I am just anxious because Stephen hasn't packed yet.

So, I am off to hike, geocache, ride old wodden roller coasters at Knoebels, eat smores and be afraid of bears. I am such a city girl that I bought a bear bell to wear around my wrist, just in case. The weekend we got engaged we were at a bear infested camp ground and I could hear them outside our tent. I cried all night. So, in order to keep Stephen from pummeling me, I have a bear bell. LMAO!

So have a great 4th of July everyone!! Talk to you Monday!

3 years of wedded bliss!

Today is our anniversary. 3 years ago today I married the love of my life and I couldn't be happier! I love you so much Stephen. Thank you for making me so happy and putting up with all my crap!

(and that's not just because I get to stuff my face with fondue tonight!)

I haven't given Stephen my gift yet, because as he says, "I was unprepared for our anniversary!" LOL. Sorry dude. I will get my shit together tonight. I was very busy packing for our camping trip and my crazy travel anxiety got the best of me.

But.... Stephen gave me presents. Even though we agreed on only one thing.. he went overboard. grrr... He gave me the complete first season of "The Tudors". YIPPEE!! He gave me the first two installments of the newest series of my favorite trashy Amish novels! I love Beverly Lewis! And a beautiful little summer dress. I love that he was walking around Soho by himself trying to find me a dress. He said he was very stressed. For those that don't know, Soho is a very trendy celebrity heavy shopping area in NYC. It's right next to the village. It happens that Stephen works there. I just love the image of him walking into trendy little stores to try and find me something. I loves him.

NOW... BRING ON THE FONDUE!!!